Epekto Ng Insomnia

1. Setting

Now Playing: Huwag Mo Na Sana - Parokya ni Edgar

Gabi
Malamig
Yosi
Aspalto
Ulap
Solo
Night
life
Alak
Laklak
Ligaya
Blade
Dugo
Semento
Bangkay
Lamay
Mahal

2. Oda kay Chuck P.

Ang kaganapan ko

Pinagtibay mo

Sa pagdatal mo

Paniniwala ko’y pinatotohanan mo

Hindi na ako mag-iisa

Sa buhay kong binabata

Hindi ko na alintana

Ang pagkaupos nang may pagdududa

Maaari na akong

Magpatiwakal

(Hindi ako naging mahina,

Nag-alinlangan lang)

Chuck Palahniuk:

“A book takes time and effort to consume – something that gives a reader every chance to walk away.”

Salamat sa pagpapasalamat mo sa nagbabasa sa’yo.

“No one really gives a damn about books. No one has bothered to ban a book in decades. But with that disregard comes the freedom that only books have.” [Afterword, Haunted]

3. You deserve no title

Cos you’re a bunch of asswipes

I wonder if that’s really a face.

Were you talking?

I thought somebody’s farting.

Are you through with your monologue?

So I could remove my earphones.

Did I happen to ask you out last night?

Man, I swear I passed out.

What was that smiling about?

I was just shooing a fly.

So we were laughing together,

Me laughing at you

You were enjoying your stupid jokes

I think you’re stupid

Nobody wanted to hear your story

Or wished for your existence

Did you even care to notice?

Take my advice

Shut up

And act like some human

Or I’m gonna suction you brain out of your nose

Mess with me

I’ll show you hell

4. UGH, UGLIES

Hindi lahat ng mayaman, marunong ng good manners.

Hindi lahat ng mahirap, walang breeding.

Hindi lahat ng edukado, matalino.

Hindi lahat ng matalino, hindi mayabang. Marami pa nga.

Hindi lahat ng lalaki, tunay.

Hindi lahat ng naging guro, ginusto.

Lahat ng estudyante, obligado.

Hindi lahat ng magulang, naging.

Hindi lahat ng anak, dapat.

Hindi lahat ng nagbabasa, nagsusulat.

Hindi lahat ng nakapag-aral, nakapagtapos.

Hindi lahat ng bahay, tahanan.

Hindi lahat ng kasal, mag-asawa.

Hindi lahat ng pamilya, isa.

Hindi puno ang saging.

Nothing can come from nothing.

Nothing is not something.

Kelan namunga ng mangga ang santol?

Bakit magtataka sa anak na nanaga kung ang magulang ay pabaya.

Hindi lahat, tao.

5. The Ultimate Solution

PROBLEMA, PERA

Bakit maglalasing kung walang pera?

Para makalimot sa problema sa pera.

Paano maglalasing para makalimot sa problema sa pera kung walang pera?

Mangutang.

Paano mangungutang para maglasing at makalimot sa problema sa pera kung walang pera na maibabayad pag nagkasingilan na?

Magsanla.

Magnakaw.

Mangholdap.

Mangidnap.

Magputa.

Pumatay.

Patayin ang ayaw magpaholdap.

Patayin ang ayaw magpasnatch ng cellphone o bag o wallet.

Patayin ang ayaw tinderang ayaw magpautang ng beer.

Patayin ang boss sa trabahong ayaw magtaas ng suweldo.

Patayin ang asawang tumatalak dahil walang panggastos sa bahay.

Patayin ang anak na walang pang-tuition.

Patayin ang bagong silang na sanggol na walang gatas at diaper na pampalit.

Pagkatapos, patayin ang sarili.

6. Past Twilight, Nearing the Dawn

I’m trying to live a good friend’s advice: think not.

At times, I can live up to it until the end of the day, even getting a good night sleep.

Yet most of the days, I can’t help it. So started a week of unwanted sleepless nights... useless nights... living nightmares.

7. Remorse

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.

I am guilty. I feel bad.

My fault.

I lost myself along the way.

I didn’t wish myself turned that way.

I did the worst and most unforgivable act.

I’ve made myself a mediocre.

Along with them.

The rest of us, alike.

In front of you.

Wicked!

But I for the most part.

Hypocrite.

Damn me.

I should have let that tear fall

In front of everybody

I could have redeemed myself

Vindicated

But I’m a coward

As always.